I was really excited when Tahnie's blog every day in November challenge came up in my feed reader. I think it might be what I need to plug back in to writing on here, so without further ado...
Since I've been sick, I've learned that there are things in life that everyone considers flukes. Happenings that only ever arise in the lives of Other People. People on TV, or friends of friends of friends.
Whether they're positive or negative doesn't matter, they catch our attention and hold it for a moment. We think "If only I could do that" or "Thank goodness that's not me". Then we forget about it, because of course that would never happen to us!
Then it does.
I had blogged for several years before I got sick, so I'd seen those blogs. Families of sick children, people in terrible accidents, couples who tragically lose their much-wanted pregnancy.
"How awful for them", I thought. "Thank goodness I'll never have to write about anything like that".
Then I did.
Before FSGS, I never thought I'd get sicker than the flu. Before FSGS, I never thought I'd be 23 and thinking about dying. Before FSGS, I never thought my father would ring 111 in the middle of the night; calling an ambulance to take me to the ER.
But those things, and more, did happen to me. It sucked, and sometimes it still does, but I coped. I coped because of some other things I also never thought would happen.
Before FSGS, I never realised that I have the kind of friends who'd call me every day to ask how I am - and then call my parents to ask how I'm really doing. Before FSGS, I never realised I would find the strength to keep saying "yes" to Scary Medical Stuff, without a second thought. Before FSGS, I never imagined moving to the other side of the world on my own.
I have learned that whatever happens in your life, even if it's something you never imagined would, you will find a way to cope.